I wish I could say that today’s inauguration experience was perfect. It easily skyrocketed to the top of my all-time life experiences list, and yet it was also so filled with discomfort and fear and worry and illness and damn near ugliness, that it is hard for me to separate that out from the wonderful hour that I spent watching the swearing-in itself. I cannot tell that glorious story without telling the rest of the story. I will not have photographs until I get home to Atlanta tomorrow (I forgot my camera cord like a moron) but for now I will get down what I can about my on-the-ground story from today’s historic events.
I attended the swearing-in with my friend Jen, and we were fortunate enough to have received a gift of swearing-in tickets from a friend who acquired extras. The ticketed areas did not open until 8:00 a.m., so we decided we needed to try and get into the line by about 7:30. Unfortunately, yesterday Jen got a terrible cold and we both barely slept while she sniffled through her night (we are lodged in the same 2 twin bed guest room), so the 5:30 a.m. wakeup call was extremely painful. We were staying with my friend Elaine who lives in North Capitol Hill, and she had promised to drive us as close as she could get us to the walking route. Because of Jen’s illness we had difficulty leaving the house before 7:00 a.m. but with Elaine’s help and a healthy walk around the Capitol, we made it to the silver ticketed line area about 7:35. We saw the front of the line, and walked…walked…walked…walked to the back of the line. It was at least 4 blocks away, at least a few thousand people in line ahead of us. But we lined up at 7:40. I was starting to come down with her illness and felt terribly nauseous, but I pushed through the pain and the cold ready to wait for my treasured historic experience.
The line began moving right at 8:00, and by 8:30 we were within sight of the silver gate on 3rd street. The line promptly stopped there and we began moving in tiny fits every 20 minutes or so. We were distressed to see more and more people showing up late and deciding to just get in line around us, not caring about the tens of thousands of people they were line jumping in front of. Because of this continual growing of the line all around us, it seemed as though the line was continually growing fatter, but almost never moving forward. It was very distressing as the hours ticked off and we moved only feet closer to the gate always looming in front of us. Periodically we would see people in front of us waving their tickets in the air, but we could not hear anything so we presumed they were trying to get security to force them to let us in.
As we neared the gate slowly, the crowd got pushier and angrier. I spent nearly an hour forced to lean over a towncar in the roadway, which was both painful and scary as people pushed the car in all directions. The crowd behind us would periodically start trying to push us forward and chanting “Let Us In!” and we sincerely feared a stampede and trampling. As we stood there until after 11:00 a.m., we became convinced that we would never get into the ticketed area, and that we would be forced to “watch” the swearing-in from just beyond the silver gate, with no sound or video to tell us anything about the event. I wrote a very strongly worded letter in my head to Dianne Feinstein, the chair of the Inaugural Committee who was responsible for the arrangements including the ticketing. I wished I had never gotten tickets, because at least on the mall with the throngs I could have ensured I had a spot near a Jumbotron with sound.
While all of this was going on, it was so cold that I could not feel my legs. Despite layering, hand and toe warmers, a neck warmer, a stupid looking hat that covered my ears, 2 layers of gloves, and being in a crowd of a bajillion people, the weather hovered in the 20s with a serious biting wind that seemed to find every nook and cranny in my gloves, socks, scarf, and hat. A nascent cold and the chills that accompanied it certainly did not help. I have never been this cold for this long in my life.
Finally at approximately 11:20 a.m., with the swearing-in ceremony about to start, we made it to the front of the line just under the silver gate. A line of police officers asked us in a group to hold up our tickets (though they did not check to be sure everyone had one or that they were real tickets and not counterfeits), and then they let a mass of at least 50 people through the gate.. We were told this was just the first layer of security, and that we needed to head left to the next security gate. The silver ticket section was split into a forward and a back section, and we presumed only the back section was open. We attempted without success to navigate the huge crowd in front of us to find a security gate, and began to worry that we would be forced to “watch” the ceremony from this spot, where we also did not have a real view or any sound. Then, as we inched forward, suddenly the dam broke to our right about 11:25. Someone had knocked over the barrier and overpowered the security, and people were rushing into the front portion of the silver section. We made it through the barrier with them and ran up the hill to as good a spot as we could get, one with a decent view of the Capitol (though we were down a hill a bit) and in front of a speaker. Just as we finally got settled, the ceremony started. We had made it!
That was the bad, or at least most of it (the freezing cold 2 mile walk home was pretty tough too). As soon as the ceremony started and we realized the miracle had occurred and we had made it in, the experience was simply perfect. Despite the cold, I swear I did not feel it the entire time we were watching and listening to the swearing-in. I looked behind me and saw an entire mall filled with people waving American flags, and it made me feel so incredibly proud of my country and this day. 2 million people had braved the cold, the crowds, the likelihood that they would be resigned to watching a gigantic TV screen, because they wanted to be there and be a part of history. 2 million people cheered when Obama and Biden were introduced, boo’ed when George W. Bush was introduced (and they also sang “Na na na na…hey hey…good bye,” though I hear that was not audible on the TV coverage), and wept when the impossible dream became official and Barack Hussein Obama had become our President.
I wept with them all, openly and without shame, almost from the moment it all began. I found it profoundly moving, even as an agnostic, to say the Lord’s Prayer with everyone else around me during Rick Warren’s convocation. I sang the National Anthem with my countrymen and it meant so much more than I ever thought it could mean. I talked to total strangers about how happy we were that Teddy Kennedy made it to this day, and about how we Atlantans are so proud of Dr. Lowery. If I had imagined the most perfect swearing-in ceremony experience for myself, I could not have painted a better experience for myself than what I actually bore witness to today.
After the ceremony we let others leave in the crowd ahead of us and then wandered up to the frozen Reflecting Pool. We watched people walk across the ice (with a few falls) and sat on the steps and nursed our pained feet. We just let it all sink in, that we were witness to history and that a dream hatched two years ago was finally reality. President Bush was whisked away by helicopter, and we realized that our nightmare is finally over. And the dream given voice on that same mall over 40 years ago has been realized.
I am so happy that I came to D.C. for this inauguration, so happy that I stuck it out through illness, pain, cold, fear, frustration and difficulty to make it inside. I am so thankful that whatever higher power you choose to believe in allowed me to experience this moment in history in person, parted the walls of all the challenges we had faced all morning at the last minute and allowed us to pass and be a part of it all. For the 2 mile walk home, I practically floated.